I keep trying to make myself feel less miserable. My grandfather always told me that whatever you do, however you feel, on the first day of the new year is going to affect you the rest of the year. And I really, really, really don’t want it to be miserable.
I need to stop obsessing and worrying over other people’s issues. But I can’t; its not who I am. I’m also not good at pretending everything is fine and its so hard for me to continue with the way I’ve been forced into depression every few weeks.
I just desperately hope that next year will be better. That I can feel better, that I can make people feel better…that things can change a little, in a way that will help everyone move on with their lives.
To all my friends I have to thank you for putting up with me this year, and wish you a Happy New Year. I hope it is full of all you wish for and many more wonderful things. May 2012 be better than 2011, for all of us.